I want to see my dying grandmother but i can't, now i can't sleep?

I just found out that my grandmother is paralyzed at bangladesh. She went to visit there like 2 months ago and now she is sick. And know that the health system is bad there, and the doctors cares about the money and not about treating the clients rights makes me furious. Now i want to go there but i can't drop everything to go there. Plus i don't even have the money to go there. I just want to see her again one last time and so that i know shes going to be fine. My only regret is that i wish i spend more time with her, i wish i gave her presents and anything i can to make her happy, i wish i did more to make her life better. She did so much for me when i was small and never really care that much, until i grew up and realized that she is a great impact of my life. I knew her since i was born, 19 years and now i realized what i have done wasn't enough. I can't sleep, eat, work, focus on school, gym, or anything until i know shes fine. My grandmother is forgetting everyone slowly and seems like remembering the past, like my father's nickname when he was small.